Day 8️⃣
First week down… What have I learned from 7 days ago?
For one, its pretending my raw vegetables are just as delicious as sweet potato fries. Seeing how I’ll be having similar meals for some time, I trained my taste buds to recognize bland foods to be my only source of fuel. When hunger kicks in, those veggies are tasting a bit more delicious.
Aside from food, some mental aspects are surfacing that put me on an anxiety level. Maybe at this stage of the detox, certain areas that were dug deep inside are beginning to rise. I’m guessing because they were so deep underneath the toxins, it wasn’t recognizable. Thoughts about where my future is heading? Will I be in a financial dilemma? Will I marry or be alone in this world? Every thought in my head I conjured, came with 50 possible answers. I guess food is not the only thing I should take into account.
My vision has improved. At times I’ll get the case of the vertigo’s. Later I realized it happens more when stressed. It would be difficult to focus on tasks at home or work. There were moments when I needed to stop looking at the monitor due to being dizzy. Also noticed I’d forget to breathe which resulted in becoming lightheaded. I’m glad no headaches are on my horizon.
The mental state is now far less aggressive than a week ago. I speak more with colleagues during lunch. Have better patience and being more present without having my mind wander elsewhere. Less closed off from the world I would say.
After work today, I took a drive out to the countryside because it was perfect weather. Didn’t want to ruin it by staying home, so I took a turn toward the mountains. Rolled all my windows down and opened up the sunroof. Put my shades on and set the playlist music on my stereo. This route taken is one I’ve done hundreds of times cause it’s the same drive to my winery-Ardiri. The scenery was impeccable. Loads of green pastures, breeze hitting me from every angle and sun keeping my face warm. I couldn’t ask for a better day. Drove past my winery exit since I was curious what’s down the road. Was going in a direction far away from home, so I found an island off the side of the road to flip the car. Once the car was turned around and ready to jump back on the main road, I stopped to listen to the silence. No wind, no cars nearby, no field works, no birds… I was in a complete state of existence. Every worry went out the door and felt peace. Decided to pray and thank the Lord for always being by my side.
Prayer-Father God, please show me how to love people like you have loved me. When I am selfish, make me humble. Make me eager to serve anyone I meet. Transform my heart so that way I treat everyone with humility. In Jesus’ name, Amen.