Hermana

Being away from the familia now for 4.5 years, I begin to reflect how things were back in San Jose, CA. How much of the seasons have gone by with my absence from the family chaos/celebrations to a fast pace world. Part of growing up (or maturing) presents an awareness that your either conscious or not. A world you feel grounded but also in motion. Like on a train bound to an unknown destination. You have no idea where or when the ride will come to an end, just conscious it is moving in a direction. Lately, my correspondence with the family has been through my sis. As I reflect back at our conversations, I'm feeling the void of bro/sis time. Don't think I've shared the love for Jen nor the impact she's made on me over the course of my new life in Portland. Sure we set time aside from our busy schedule when possible to keep the the relationship fresh. But to share a brothers perspective towards his sister on what she absolutely means to me, is overdue lol.

Sis, life is interesting. I remember when I was your age and didn't get out of my melancholy phase until two years after. Time fly's for sure, but they served me as valuable resources of whats to come. I'm not here to lecture on how to prepare for the future-mom can do that. Nah, I'm here just to instill a couple of words from the heart so that you can reflect them throughout your journey bound by your own train. Sis, my new place is awesome and met several different people along the way, but what holds true, is our moments we share that sustains me across all occasions in my life. I can count on you for anything and the best part is your reassurance that never fails. When people have difficulty understanding me, you don't. When I'm stagnant on the road with heavy feet, you support me with confidence to execute a decision. In reaching barriers, you not only tell me to keep going, but make sure my grip is firm to press a little higher. You're not afraid to crash through my walls to set me straight when I stray from my path. I love the fact we can be nerds and share funny moments regardless if others think it's lame. I can still laugh knowing you're right by my side laughing with me.

I love you sis.