DAY 2️⃣

First thing I noticed, was how the day presented itself to me. A def change in my rising morning. Felt uneasy, less agitated and boosts of strength. Semi waking up, I kept thinking what happened the night before that got me in this mood. Those who know me, I sleep hard and easily breeze through alarms. I’m one not to be bothered during my rest. Night owl is part of my DNA. Seems things get done during the nocturnal hours. It was less weight on the shoulders yet wasn’t sure how I felt about it quite yet. The sensation was light and deemed a closer step to changes in my overall body. In the kitchen my only option were oranges, so I grabbed two, cut some slices and gulped em. The mind was okay, no hints of suffering or feeling low on my energy levels. Going into the weekend, being Saturday, a sense of peace fell over me. There’s no agenda, no trips to make, no worries about food that I took the day as it is without restraints. Maybe this was the first time actually living through every present minute. I put on the TV and watched a few shows. Not gonna lie, being inside most of the day, felt like a jail cell. Well, with the perks of vacating anytime and having food at my disposal without being micromanaged. At times I shifted from the tele to catching up on reading. Sipped my tea as I stared out the window into the gray sky itching to rain. To avoid the hunger, thoughts were generated in my head. Many of those were looking back at life. What different chapters I’ve generated? How phases intertwined with one another over the years. What sums up Jorge? How did he get to where he is now? People I’ve come across helping me write stories in my book. Or those who made me want to rip pages off. The more thoughts placed in my head, the more I came face to face with. It’s almost like re-calibrating me, pulling from the depths of the future/past slowing its way into the present. Def enjoyed the solitude. The way it freed me. Making me tap into a slower pace to be one with self. Inhaled deep breaths… along with exhaling whispering prayers. You know the saying… the only person who knows you best is yourself. Whilst true, it can get clouded with toxins. Then you're left dealing with those ailments and begin to learn a new side of you that’s unhealthy. Support from friends, colleagues, professionals and loved ones are very important. We are social beings and gain knowledge from their interactions. Taking time to re-calibrate is important. No distractions, no noise, no interruptions. Just yourself grounded, feeling gravity beneath your feet, being present with the person you know. We could maybe understand more about our traits of who we are.

I go through the day with much silence, phone nowhere to be seen and practice the skill of being still as challenging as it was.